18.2.2008
By Ruwan Weerakoon in Colombo
This
is a lamentation of a female Tiger cadre Jenny, who died
in a recent battle with the Sri Lanka Army in Parapakandal,
located in the Mannar district. After her death letters
were recovered from her.
The letters reveal the mentality of the female cadre who
was recruited forcefully by the Liberation Tigers of Tamil
Eelam to be a cannon fodder in a meaningless battle which
kills so far more than 20,000 LTTE cadres alone.
In
one of the letters found in the body of the female cadre
reveals that she did not join the LTTE voluntarily. She
was forcefully conscripted. She knew very well that she
will never be able to leave from the grip of the Tamil
Tigers. But she was longing to be reunited with her father,
mother, sisters, brothers and others in the family. Unfortunately
her yearnings did not materialize.
“When
will I be able to get out of this hell? I am not sure
whether it might ever happen,” she writes with frustration
and finality.
At
last in the battle with Sri Lankan Army, she was a victim
and finally her death liberated her from her daily agony,
anguish, mental torture and ever burning desire to meet
her family once and for all. She is no more. Let her soul
rest in peace.
It
is time that Tamil mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters
jointly come forward to liberate the children who have
been forcefully conscripted to fight an irrational and
meaningless war.
Given below the full text the letter written by Jenny:
31.01.2008
Loving
Appa, Amma, Rajini, Dercy, Gamri, Kuyinsa, Tharakutti,
Thambakutti ... I am all right. I pray God that you be
blessed. Is Amma well?
There
is a rumor here that something has happened at home.
I
am crying and shedding tears here. Our handler will send
us home if there is a problem at home. But nobody knows
whether it would ever happen.
I
send a latter to Amma. The person who undertook to deliver
the letter promised to bring back a reply from Amma. But
so far I have not heard anything from that person.
I
already send five letters home. Did you receive them?
I will send this letter by hand through Suda teacher’s
Shanthi (English teacher at Pudukudirippu).
I
am now at the rear base of Mullikulam in Mannar. The area
is always shelled. We use to run to bunkers for safety.
When will I be able to get out of this hell? I am not
sure whether it might ever happen.
Amma,
Appa, Rajini and all, I always remember you. Don’t
unnecessarily waste your time thinking about me and fasting
without food. If Amma falls sick seriously, inform me.
Then they will arrange to show her to me.
Amma,
don’t worry about me. I am all right. Can’t
help. This is the path that God has crated for me I live
with the hope that some day or other God Almighty will
reunite us.
Appa,
I am safe here by the Grace of God that you daily worship.
Amma, do they still arrest the family members of deserters?
Now they abduct two if there are five in the family.
Amma,
please sent away Sarasila to Vavuniya. Otherwise, she
will also be abducted.
How
is Jagsa? Is uncle writing to you? What is Thuvajara doing?
How is Shashi Akka?
Getting
my release from here is only a dream, but you must not
be moved by that. Let’s wait and see whether they
will leave me to go home.
I
am sorry that my age is passing. What else shall I write?
Dercy,
Kawsita, be careful don’t be obstinate.
Kara,
Kutti, Thambi you also be careful. God bless you.
T.
Jenny
Courtesy - Asian
Tribune